HEY ALL!!    "    I look inside myself and see my heart is black, I see my red door and it has been painted black, maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts, it's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black    "       Well what a very hard and trying day. First off I had to deal with my ex-employer and trying to get my COBRA premium refund that I over paid. I would rather have a colonoscopy, than deal with this. And it is only because I am dealing with someone, who is head of Human Resources, but has NO IDEA about COBRA!! How can that be?? He really is dumb that way. So I am educating him and trying to get my money back all at the same time. WOW. I think however, I got through to him today. Or I pissed him off sooo bad he is not returning my e-mails. He had better hope it's the former and NOT the latter. Because if he is just dodging my e-mails, he is in for a MUCH worse time. I know, I can deliver it when it's needed!! Then off to my liver doctor for a follow up, AND BAD news! My liver counts have started to go BACK UP again!  Doctor says not as much as before, BUT they are up from January. AND, I have gained 12 pounds since January! What the FUCK?? I have been outside doing something almost every day for the last 30 to 45 days. Yard work, painting the shed and fence, moving stuff in the garage, sorting and stacking etc. AND I GAIN WEIGHT?!?!?! I can sit in a chair 24/7 and lose weight. But, I get active and start doing physical stuff and I GAIN weight. WOW!! I just don't get it. Doctor wants me to lose weight and get another blood work in 5 weeks. I gotta do something. this liver thing REALLY bugs me. I guess I will research tomorrow about weight plans and exercise I can do with my Lumbar Spinal Stenosis tomorrow and see what might be out there. The good news, I will be SITTING  IN A CHAIR ALL DAY TOMORROW!!  COW MOI